These days I have been watching Friends all over again starting from Season 1. You know, one thing is for sure, you can watch Friends all over again and again and you will still love it. It really encompasses you in itself. You feel being a part of Ross, Chandler, Joey, Monica, Rachel n Phoebe’s life.
Season 3 left me with my memories of the past esp two episodes. In The one with all jealousy where Ross is feeling that he is loosing Rachel to the guy Mark who works with her. Ross confronts to Rachel that he is insecure and jealous of Mark as he does not wants to loose her. Rachel comes back and says that nothing like that is going to happen, but then Ross has a point! He says that he had a relationship of 8 years with Carol and that ended up! Ross had a constant fear of Rachel’s new friends in her office and he felt that Rachel is taking her job pretty too much in her life. Ross was never saying that Rachel should not work hard, but all he wanted was that Rachel divides time between her work and personal life. You know this episode has a lot for me. I had came across this situation where I was skeptic of her new friends, I was seeing it coming my way where she will start drifting away from em for some office colleague of hers. I used to ask for marking a lone between work and personal life, kept telling that the ones she thinks of as friends are not simply friends but has some other motives. You know what, most of all I was damn paranoid of loosing her, and indeed I lost her in the last. My worst fears came true!
The scenes in The one where Ross and Rachel take a break and The one the morning after where Ross feels humiliated after being asked out of Rachel’s office and then the whole fight thing. I have seen all this and ending it this way. The conversations over phone, where you can hear someone in the background, the one you would never want there to be with her, yet when you ask her, there will come an affirmative response in breaks. Yo loose control and you freak out, ending in the phone being out off. You become restless after that call and you try to call again and again, obviously in vain as the phone is not being answered. Your fear goes stronger inside you. You ask yourself, are you loosing her? Is she falling for that guy? You know the answers, yet you wish you never knew. You see that guy smiling and winning all the way by his neat tricks but you are helpless for sure. And then, one fine day which turns out to be not so fine, the apocalypse. The big fight where you will end up pleading, crying, literally begging and she being heartless executioner in saying that it’s all over. God that kills.
It’s really tough for people like me to get over things. People who are there in a relationship with all their heart but the other perosn does not gives it a damn. For him/her it doesn’t matters how much you can care about or love. I don;t know what actually matters for them. I seriously have not been able to figure that out.
People do give themeselves away to emotions, to their fears, to their sentiments. And all this makes me think of those times more and more and makes me feel no good at all! But then this is Life!